I feel so good about this school year. It was the first "Back to School" season I didn't have to participate in and I can't tell you how FREEING it felt. After I pulled Q out of school, I realized the stress I felt every Sunday night, trying to mentally prepare for the upcoming week, thinking, "What's going to happen THIS week?" or "What will Q get in trouble for THIS time?" or my favorite thought, "What 'mean thing' will his teacher/an aide say to him THIS week?" I didn't have to worry about ANY of that. Then the holiday season came... I realized that we were not BOUND by the "school schedule." I don't just mean 9am-3pm, Monday through Friday. I mean bedtime, morning time, even weekend time. We can stay up late or get up late... Q is learning ALL DAY LONG, EVERY SINGLE DAY. School ended for his public school friends and I didn't have that, "Thank GOD!" feeling like I always had, so incredibly happy that he would be home for the next 2 and 1/2 months. It was just another great day that would lead into more great days... I felt such peace and it was amazing. When school started up again a couple of weeks ago, I had that peaceful feeling again. I didn't have to buy school supplies, only to have them "divied" up between his entire class, I didn't have to buy a pair of "cool" markers for school AND for home (because he would never know what he'd end up being able to keep or not depending on how his teacher set up the supply "system" in the classroom). I had such a calm feeling as I often do now.
I am figuring it out as I go. I'm a teacher and a "hard-core pro-public schooler" turned anti-schooling (for kids under 18, at least). I'm learning new things every day and reading as much as I can. My son is happier and taking in more than he's even aware of. He's finally not saying that he "hates learning" all the time. He's realizing that learning is fun and interesting and that it's not a CHORE; something he is forced to do.
Peace. :-)
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